Bend is AWESOME! As a missionary I'm sure you're like, well Duh you have to say that! You can't say, oh wow if this area melted into the surface of the earth, no one would miss it....and well, yeah I couldn't say that but, currently there is no need....Bend is truly amazing! It's cold and windy but really sunny, which keeps my inner temperature gauge constantly confused.
Being a missionary is hard, some days more than others....it is so much more than I ever thought it would be. I am tested to my limits daily, I have found I have new limits and they are tested and pushed and broken....sometimes I think, it's too much, physically - emotionally....I look inside myself and feel, I have nothing left to give. I have never been so exhausted, I have never been so torn, I have never been so unsure, I have never been so alone, I have never been so down....yet, I have never been so exhilarated, I have never been so complete, I have never been so confident, I have never been so needed, I have never been so happy....my mission may be bringing out my inner schizophrenia :)
It's hard to remember who I was before this journey began, I feel I've grown so much. I am often amazed at how in tune I am with the spirit...like wow really? This is me?! This experience is more than I can put into words, I am so blessed to have the opportunity to serve a mission. Lately I have been journaling....I write everything down! I decided to start out each of my journal entries with "Dear Kids"....it's so cool knowing that I'm writing to my children, it makes me re-think what I write..it makes me focus on the positive, it makes me see the power of the spirit. I LOVE IT! So....sending journals as a gift is a great idea!
My favorite song right now is "Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing"
Come, thou Fount of every blessing,
tune my heart to sing thy grace;
streams of mercy, never ceasing,
call for songs of loudest praise.
Teach me some melodious sonnet,
sung by flaming tongues above.
Praise the mount! I'm fixed upon it,
mount of thy redeeming love.
tune my heart to sing thy grace;
streams of mercy, never ceasing,
call for songs of loudest praise.
Teach me some melodious sonnet,
sung by flaming tongues above.
Praise the mount! I'm fixed upon it,
mount of thy redeeming love.
My words can't say more than the words of this song say....they lift my spirit.
Don't forget me...send lots of love, there can never be too much :)
Make sure my clothes and shoes and ALL my hand bags are being watched over carefully! I can't think about them or I start to have a panic attack! Mom, Seriously - ON GUARD!
I love you all, keep me in your prayers, you are Always in mine!
XOXO
Sis Z
Sis Z's new address is :
1761 N.E. Witchita Way #2
Bend, OR
97701
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